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I'm trying for escape velocity

Sunday, September 11th, 2016 by Holy at www.swordofmoonlight.net

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This site/I have been very quiet. I think — or want to predict — that this is a calm before a storm. I am in the process of redirecting my energies in order to pursue a higher profile status for myself and Sword of Moonlight. It doesn’t mean I’ll necessarily succeed; but I don’t know why not. It’s always difficult to say, because my life experience has been one that: if you attempt to do anything worthwhile where software is concerned, you basically must be prepared to go it completely alone, and to greet a completely unsympathetic wall, every day, as if it’s an outpouring of supportive, eternally grateful, fellow people, that are totally there — not a figment of your psyche willed to be so to spur your work at all; just like everything else you must will into being, tirelessly, day in, day out, for an imagined audience, that apparently could care less if you exist or not! but will paradoxically manifest one day, as if you’d always done so. It’s frankly mad, but it gives me a purpose, where otherwise my life would — I believe — be dull and unmeaningful.

And not for want of alternatives. My life is actually charmed. Which just makes it all the more difficult to willfully break its mold. Anyway, I feel like the time is right to go for broke. I don’t know how, but I will exhaust my options. The most difficult part is considering changing my lifestyle, or traveling again, or even moving if it comes to that. I am very isolated. It’s ideal for software development, and there’s no change I could make that would be more ideal for software development, but like I hope I communicated, raising the profile of this project I think must entail more than mere software work. I’ve done plenty of that for years. And it’s definitely reached a head. But I think to go on like this risks never parting the curtain on the world-stage.

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